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| A new chapter begins here, in Toronto. To be honest, I've never really liked this city much. I don't really have an explanation for this and I've never really felt this way for any other city before. But, maybe I just haven't discovered what I like about the city yet... maybe. Well, whether I like it or not, I'll be stuck here for four years so I better make the best out of it.
I still can't believe I'm going back to school and I really don't know if I'm ready for this craziness. I haven't studied for the longest time and my brain definitely feels rusty right now. >< I don't really know what to expect, other than the unexpected. All this free time in my hands right now is just making me think through how I got to this place this moment. It's like everything makes sense, but at the same time, it doesn't.
Excited? Yes. Worried? Extremely. But really, there aren't much to worried about. I think I'm just worried about myself worrying about unnecessary things. haha right.
Point of no return. 4 years. 
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| what's worse than not enough sleep? not having a good sleep! i'm pretty sure most, if not all would agree.
i think i'm too stressed from working at the clinic, which is totally ridiculous b/c it's not that stressful working there! but it all started from the night of my first shift. blahhh. i guess i'm scared of making a mistake b/c i'm new and i don't want to ruin the doc's name. i'm also not doing as well as i hope, although today went alright. sigh, need to lower my expectations.... can't expect myself 'to reach the sky in one step'
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| Day 2 at the clinic~ Not bad. Well, not really sure how to explain how I feel right now. I feel kind of... out of place. Maybe I'm putting too much pressure of myself since I'm still new but still... i don't like feeling i'm in the way. I guess the new lady started yesterday as well had the whole day to practise yesterday (she worked till 9 pm) so she has a better idea of what to do...a whole 7 hours more (plus today)... so i shouldn't really compare but... i can't help it  I feel like such a klutz toooo! argh, maybe i'm just to nervous. I can't even explain myself or ask questions properly in Chinese too. ARGH. so frustrating....
I got the chance to watch Dr. Wan today (he was treating an actor as well) and I couldn't help worrying and having doubts. it's all very facinating... but at the same time, i'm scared. the road is long... sigh. What if i'm not good at it? sigh... just need to continuously remind myself to have confidence...
didn't sleep well last night. keep waking up at night feeling uneasy. hmm maybe i am stressed out about work for no reason....
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| After being stuck at home sick for 2 days... I finally got some fresh air today! Didn't really feel right this morning when I left the house though, but I think I'd been resting for too long~ hehe
Went in for my first day of training today at the Chiropractic clinic. There was another lady there who's new too who they just hired for full time so they were training both of us. Just the basic procedures, how to use some of the machines, and I got to see for the first time what the Chiropractor does! hehe kind of exciting. It was kind of quiet today b/c the main chiro isn't back from holiday yet until tmr. So, day 2 tmr! yay! we've been warned though of how hectic it could be~ hehehe
Been having this weird feeling today... thinking about my future. Even though I've already decided on chiropractics, it still doesn't look as clear as i thought it would be. I look at the DC (doc of chiropractic) at the clinic and I try to imagine myself with the white robe.... can't really see it at the moment. Maybe eventually...
think it's time to find another blog website...hmmm
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| Hmmm, do you every wonder how you turn out to be who you are? Nurture vs nature?
I feel horrible right now b/c I feel like I'm creating so much trouble. I guess I'm stubborn... or maybe even selfish. I don't know... but I'm sorry. I don't deserve someone who's so caring and understanding. I wish I could do the same for you.
Sorry... and thank you...
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